Frustration

I'm been realized that i wrote a lot of blog which with no good news, all about frustration, angry, not happy, financial problem, health problem, works problem, relationship problem... Well, guess what! I think i've been handling it quite well, reason being, i'm used to be very emotional nor negative. If anything happen, i'll just dig my head into same hole again and again. Quite stubborn and always cry cry cry. Stupid!!! All i can say.
Gosh, i am really damn broke. The mins i got my paid, next mins all gone... Just gone... My aim this year is to clear all my credit cards debts, which i am doing it now. How??? I kept all my credit card for about 2 months now, YAHOO!!! I did it, at least. By then, i need almost RM3k just to clear my bloody credit card debts. My baby snowy monthly expenses, my rental house, my "big ear hole" at home... Arghhhhh... all need "old man head" notes. Everything increase cost, why my salary never increase???? You tell me la!!! Sometimes i figure myself like stupid idiot, without increase of pay also work like dog. 24/7. Never get good rest, can't sleep well. Always scolded my staff, which make me felt damn fucking guilty after that. Worried & Tired la..Help!!!