there is a moment...

that i really don't understand... Things are getting unclear for me now, a lot of time you make me feel that im look like an idiot after for what i've done to you. You seems so stranger for me now, don't know when are you is real, when is not????

Nervous

Atmosphere in office now is all about nervous and exciting... 1 by 1 concept & mock up all displayed just infront you, wonder how's going to the presentation later this afternoon. Our boss, Lien... Super Nervous yet Worried.. His expression also shown on his face and he even cant focus until he search for "Nobody" song singing by Korean Girls group and dance on the spot...GOD, we must win...Yes!

Things to do before end of ~ 2009

1. To check all my old car have change name or not???? DONE
2. To add Beneficiary for my EPF account.
3. Dental.... yearly teeth clean...DONE
4. To do my baby Snowy '1st car polish'...DONE
5. To survey my '1st laptop' and get it too...
6. To go gym for workout, if possible...hehehehe Going once, more to go...
7. To do my eye fats surgery... To be reconsider, wahahaha...


(to be continue..)

Family, Relationship & Career

Recently listen to the radio, there's a topic saying about 'Do you love your job'? 1st thing came to my mind is, I LOVE my job, but, i also HATE my job. Reason being, by doing this job i've to sacrificed my family & my boyfriend. Coz i've to put 100% on it, my passionate of this work help me to overcome all the problems. Whenever, wherever...
But all the listener answers is "I HATE MY JOB", dis la, dat la... bla bla bla..i was thinking why don't they think of it what actually they want in that life?

bad mood

Not sure whether is bcoz of resume of work from long weekend, or there's something happen and make me felt moody. There's no more inspiration of work, i guess. Who can tell what will really happen next. Even what i've done for all these years, maybe i should really think and plan what should do next.

无聊的结果

为什么这么说呢！我想，就应该是我到底有多久没有写日记了。最后一次还在几个月前呢！
我更本就是无聊才写的吗〉？？...回想这几个月来，还发生满多事情的。当然有事情发生是好啦，起码人生没有那么苦闷吗。人生就是一场戏，演完了，还有下一集呢! 往往我的人生就是如此。。。该高兴呢还是气馁呢？？？
在我和她和平的和好之后，我又和他相逢。。。天意还蛮会弄人啊！
两段曾经有很深刻的回忆的感情，又再次的发生。我在想啊，一个普通人真的不能接受。也许，年纪慢慢的大了，想法也成熟了吧。很多事情也看得很开。。。
真无奈，其实我很想发泄， 把什么都写在此， 为什么我写不去来呢？？？

意料以外的结果。。。

曾经很痛苦地犹疑着是否应该把我和她难以解释的感情都抛开或忘记，也试着在我们翻脸的时候和她沟通,就像普通同事般一起工作。 时间一天又一天的过去，事情仿佛一切都变平凡了，也许是天的安排让我们又有机会的单独一起，我们一起去了几个国家。当我在没有准备之下，她竟然和我说她很久没有那么开心了。我真的很意外，意外她有那么的这样的感觉。这感觉我也差一点忘记了，也许我是压抑着自己的感觉而不敢发泄出来吧!无可否认的我是那么的崇拜她，也许她也不懂吧。才短短的几个星期，我们挽回了多年来的感情，也瓦解了多年的误会与误解。我真得很怀念这些感觉，也很开心。真的很开心。 我也很想谢谢她最近无时无刻的在旁的支持我，甚至无条件的体谅我。 让我也觉得很惊讶！我真得很希望我们能维持现在的状况，如果可以的话，到永久。。。

FUCKED UP

What im done wrong????? Am i really deserve this kind of punishment or mistake???? Am i stupid or what? How can i have all this bloody fucking stupid mistake or problems happen all in once? What should i do next? Fucking careless... Should i resign and run away? Is this the best way for me to escape all this problem, mistake, question that can never solve from both side? Miley Cyrus new song "The Climb" , it said that's another mountain to climb no matter what.... WTF? I've been climbing mountain to another mountain. I'm done... i cant push myself anymore.