一片空白

现在的我头脑一片空白， 不知道要写什么。因为我还在工作啊！天啊，为什么我要这么折磨自己呢？？？？起初我还蛮想写些东西来发泄我现在的愤怒，就不知道为什么当我想写的时候，头脑就塞住了。干纳赛咯。。。

Job or work with your passion???

It's been 5 years i'm in this industry. To be honest, i am really tired & bored with what i'm doing now for my work. 1st of all, i'm writing this blog in my client office. FUCK! Yes, i'm still in my fucking client fucking office to do some sign-off stuff. Frankly, i thought it's my passion of this work hold me till now, apparently not. It's the 'figures' things which struggling me all these years. Guess what, in 2 years time, my white hair is all around my hear and i have to do coloring almost every 3 months. And it's cost me a BOMB!!!! 2nd-ly, i've been asking myself, where's my passion of this work gone??? Quite simple i guess. It is when you work on someplace for too long, facing the same ppl all these year, facing the "BOSS" all these years, day in day out. Guess that's the good reason for me "why am i lost my passion of work". Sometimes i have this feeling that i've been working my ass off, nothing in return but just bloody same fucking salary that never been increase for the fucking 2 years.

* Sorry, i guess i've wrote too much "F" word in this blog. Do apologize for those read my blog. And also please bear with me coz i really can't stand it no more.Arghhhhhh

This is me while I'm writing this blog!!!

令人讨厌的态度！！！

她！自以为是。终令人对她有种鸡皮起疙瘩，就是因为她那臭脾气。真的很想在她面前说：你妈的，不要这样串！你以为你有什么了不起，你也只不过是普通人一个。。。

气死我了！！！

Family Gathering at Genting @210310

It's been a while that all of us gather together nor to trip. It happen this weekend, feel good though, even i'm lost some money for Uncle Lim, aiya, takapa la!... But all my sis & bro got won some.. hahaha

误会。。。

我想我写的日记引起了我和她的误会。可能因为我的文采根本就是一塌糊涂，所以才容易令人容易误会。哎呀！真糟糕!怎么办才好呢???这已经是第2次了。当我看到她的留言后，我还蛮担心的。坦白说，她可是我唯一的知己啊。我要怎样做才可以把事情弄清楚呢？在人生中啊，往往都是要人选择，为什么就不能够有完美的路给我们跑呢？？？

Sober

Yes, i've been sober for 3 weeks now, in other word thanks for the piles... Hahahaha... Is very tempting sometimes, so desperate want to drink, but CAN'T. What to do??? Anyway, that's not the point. What i'm trying to say is, without drinking. There's gain and loss. Gain of coz i got slight healthy life but i lost my friend (not confirm). Bcoz since then, most of them didnt even call me. Sigh!!! How la? That's life man, life always not happen in a way that you wanted. I hope things will be better...

Piles 累事

Haiya, so troublesome la this piles thingy... Piles plus this stupid Great Eastern also, really give me alot of trouble. Card Declined??? What the fuck.. Never heard of it before. Can't sleep well for few days already, now i've to decide not to take that 10k surgery. hmmm i think ah, if i really take that, my butt will become golden ass... kakaka

2010

It's a not good year for me, i guess.
Just beginning of 2010, i need to admit to hospital for a stupid Piles surgery and this bloody surgery going to cost me RM10k, yes RM10k, fuck... i'm start blaming myself how come im so unless. Never have saving for emergency, what have i been doing all this year. My gosh. so dem fuck myself. Damn it.

I do hope after this incident, my life can turn better...